I don’t know why the Universe decided I actually had to like him. Maybe I just needed a trial, to be forced to stand up for my worth. I don’t fucking know. I know it hurts my feelings. Better now than later. I deserve so much more. Right now I just need to sit with these feelings, I need to be kind to myself. At least he didn’t try to hide it, didn’t lie or use me… could always be worse right? I got my feet wet, I stepped out of my fear, so that is a huge deal and I’m very proud of myself.
Being alone is comfortable, for the first time in my life.
I really did like him though.