I have to give myself a moment to grieve. To grieve the loss of something that was never real. Ironic. Isn’t that how this all

I feel calm, still, at peace. I had breathwork today and I think this was a very remarkable turning point. Not that anything extraordinary happened,

Here I sit trying to figure out what the Universe wants from me. The scary part is I think I know. It wants me to

I hurt. I had an appointment at the dentist that went down the dark tunnel of torture. My face went from completely numb to numb

I don’t know why the Universe decided I actually had to like him. Maybe I just needed a trial, to be forced to stand up

They say being alone is okay. That we have everything we need within ourselves to feel joy, bliss… we don’t need another person to make

After a lifetime of conditioning I still want a romantic partner. When I can’t find one to suite my needs I try to create him.

Yesterday I reacted poorly, and was unnecessarily defensive. It pisses me off. It pisses me off that what he did is still affecting me. That

M called me earlier and asked how it was going with Mr. Nice Guy, I told her I hadn’t talked to him since yesterday when

What a wild ride this week has been… It feels like this is the first chance I’ve had to sit still, much less write. A

The other day my brother said to me, “He’s just after one thing”… I know what you’re thinking, that’s not it! My brother thinks everyone

I’ve always liked boys… no, I mean really, really liked them. I think most of us hit a boy crazy period during adolescence but mine

I am a terrible person when I’m in any sort of pain. I don’t mean to be, I am just emotional when I’m sick and

I think it’s over, I think I’ve finally stopped reacting and then something else happens. I found myself in a situation last week where I

What exactly was the goal of this game? My side wanted to give and receive love. His side wanted only to receive it. His side

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve cried over him. It hit my heart tonight. Knowing that I’m really letting go is painful. There’s always

I am having a hard day. I’m not sure what is bringing up these feelings today. I want to scream at him, I want to

I’m lying here getting ready to go to go sleep, replaying the day in my mind. It clicked, it’s so obvious but it just clicked.

Today has been a test of my ability to maintain a positive outlook. I am trying so hard. I woke up and wrote out what

I have given so much of myself to those who have hurt me. I have given so much to my narcissistic husband. It’s my turn.

I broke no contact today. I feel slightly ashamed, but he’s back to ghosting me so I don’t feel nearly as bad as I would

At least once a day I try to take off my wedding band. I was shocked when I washed my hands this morning to see

I messed up. I texted him happy birthday last night. He just replied with a “Thanks, Sharon”… but that was enough to get my mind

I can still see his face, telling me he thought I was strong enough, that our “foundation” was strong enough for me to handle what

That SOB. Half of our state and the two states below us are on fire, do you think he has bothered to even check on

I am so angry. I’m lying in bed trying to sleep and the tears just started. There was a scene on TV where two people

I am so angry. Angry at him for ghosting me, for gaslighting me for turning me into this mess of a woman. I am angry

If I had a dollar for every time I heard that. First of all, writing a book is not easy, hell writing a book report

I reached out yesterday… no response as expected. I just told him I hope he got settled okay, and then felt ashamed of myself immediately